Weekend!

My weekend was great! (well MOSTLY great).

J and I went for an intensive gaming session at a games cafe (I shall keep it undisclosed for now, don't want the rate to increase!) We played guitar hero world tour wii sports and raving rabbits for FOUR whole hours and I only had dinner at 10 plus! At risk of being labelled a mountain tortoise it was my very first time playing wii! I am so tempted to buy it now :p Think the weather forecast will have heavy thunder with periods of money falling soon? :>

Ah but piano was a disaster. I actually did practise my piano but because i gamed so much on saturday, I didn't really practise during the weekend. Ah second time in a row being chided. Doesn't feel good :P

The reversal

When I was a little kid, I couldn't wait to grow up. Wasn't it the same for you? The adults looked so cool and intimidating. I wanted to drive, to date to earn money.... I wanted to help people...

Then... I grew up. Of course it didn't happen overnight but sometimes it feels as if it did. The time sometimes seem to pass so fast. Its only when you grow up that your thoughts differ and you'd give anything to have your youth back because you realize life can be beautiful and.... Life is so short.

A Holiday Recap

So that's it... the holiday's done and over! How fast is that? Einstein was right time is relative the holidays just simply flew by and I don't really know how!

Truth be told the holiday was not as great as I hoped but in all honesty I did have a good time a really good one the one major disappointment is that it didn't add a lot of zest or boost the relationship all that much. It helped that's for sure it WAS good for the relationship its just that I wished it was MUCH BETTER :>

Waking up today was kinda weird and really sad. Alone in the house and well I could go out but I really don't feel like it with the mountain of work awaiting me tomorrow now that I am back on Singapore shores I just can't throw thosr far back enough for me to enjoy myself but one thing I am trying to do is CARPE DIEM! CJCians 'd be proud. Its not gonna be easy though!

Rape in Singapore

I've always thought that Singapore was relatively safe.. I mean sure there are burglaries and snatch thefts etc but these aren't that bad and it seems that they are under control as well but in recent years.. there have been some shocking news stories and this one is definitely one of them

http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_455723.html

http://thecourtroom.stomp.com.sg/stomp/courtroom/case_of_the_day/282308/rape_trial_youths_wanted_to_get_17yearold_girl_drunk.html

Did it break your heart just reading that? I can't imagine how the poor girl must have felt...Of course the girl lay still she must have been shell shocked...

What about the picture of one of the accused? Does he look arrogant to you? I've always thought that Singapore courts tend to mete out stiff sentences and I am not an advocate of the death penalty but in this case, if they are found to be guilty, I am definitely in favour of stiff sentences. I'd say hit the max jail and caning...
sighz... Such a disgrace

Rock

Its been an absolutely tumultous week. I am still reeling and dealing with certain very sad events that happened in my life recently so my mood's persistently had a tinge of funk.

Stress at work's constant but recently increased AGAIN thanks to some XXXXX from upstairs that's actually of lower rank, family's recovering as well so there's definitely stress and subconciously/conciously that stress has been passed to J maybe due to my hot temper. J finally lost it.

So as it stands three main sources of stress. I really think the word stress should never have been invented...

If only I could hide somewhere and let the tears fall freely. I've always prided myself on being sensitive but my tears don't fall freely. I may be the weakest link in my family but its a tough family so much as I have that thought, the tears won't come. I have been trained too well to let them fall. So I'll hold it inside and act tough like I always do. Somehow I'll get through it alone.... I always do. I am a rock and how many rocks have you seen cry? :>

Insight

I had a very beautiful insight to myself recently. I realize I have many acquaintances but very few friends. I now realize I made it that way myself.
I don't open myself to others that often or that easily. I am afraid of getting hurt. When you lay yourself bare, you are opening yourself up for hurt and sorrow.
What I now realize also is that if you don't you'll never be able to forge a true
relationship so I think maybe I'll start changing a little of myself. One baby step at a time... :> Maybe...

Thanks to all my dear friends whether we meet often or not you're all important to
me!

Naive...

Yesterday... walking around buying food, looking at vcds while waiting for food... the pain started to permeate again. I didn't shed tears this time but the heavy feeling was inescapable. Its okay though.. the sadness shouldn't disappear so
quickly. I think we are all stable now or at least most of the time.