Insight

I had a very beautiful insight to myself recently. I realize I have many acquaintances but very few friends. I now realize I made it that way myself.
I don't open myself to others that often or that easily. I am afraid of getting hurt. When you lay yourself bare, you are opening yourself up for hurt and sorrow.
What I now realize also is that if you don't you'll never be able to forge a true
relationship so I think maybe I'll start changing a little of myself. One baby step at a time... :> Maybe...

Thanks to all my dear friends whether we meet often or not you're all important to
me!

Naive...

Yesterday... walking around buying food, looking at vcds while waiting for food... the pain started to permeate again. I didn't shed tears this time but the heavy feeling was inescapable. Its okay though.. the sadness shouldn't disappear so
quickly. I think we are all stable now or at least most of the time.